C&G, I have been following this thread for a bit, sorry to hear you are facing a few challenges. And yes, these are challenges. I understand you are going through a rough patch lately, and it sucks, no doubt about it. But how you choose to deal with these challenges are what will define you in the long life you have ahead of you. I understand your're heart broken. Trust me, its not going to be the last time. Friends moving and leaving, yeah this is going to happen a lot too. Expressing your sadness and disappointment is good for the soul to an extent. But it's time to move on, and learn from this experience. Drinking.... that 's an unhealthy outlet that will lead you down a dangerous path.
I remember some time ago, you released a thread about work and what to do. Have you looked into the suggestions that were given to you? I remember you were an athlete in H.S. Wrestler I think... have you looked into coaching? Teaching and passing on to others what you have learned as an athlete, will reward you more than you can imagine. Trust me, you begin to coach or mentor youth you will forget your worries.
Enough with the pity party, and get on with your life. You are so young, and have endless amounts of options available to you, although right now everything seems blurry. This fog will lift, and you will look back at this moment in your life and smile it off. Best of luck to you, and keep on keeping on.